A bunch of Fools...

We took our car home last Friday morning at 6am after pulling an all nighter at his parents’ house. We haven’t had our car for a month while it was getting fixed. It felt good to drive again. after sleeping all day, Eki took the car to a friend’s house for a minute.. And guess what?? Accident! Eki was hit by a drunk driver! Ok so first and foremost, Eki is fine. The guy hit the driver side straight on like a "T" and my husband wasn’t even bruised! I am so grateful for that.

This incident has led to many thoughts this week.

First, I had what I believe is my first panic attack. I have had anxiety in the past, but nothing like this. I thought I was fine because Eki was fine and I wasn't even in the car. That is what I get for thinkin’. Later Friday night, I saw that Eki ate an extra pie. We buy him 6 meat pies for his lunches.. One for each day of the week. I went to the fridge and saw that there were none left! We don’t buy them until Wednesday, which means that he would have 2 days without food. I flipped! Seriously I know that this borders on insanity, bare with me, it will hopefully make sense in a minute.. I got so upset with Eki for eating an extra pie! (yes I am laughing now at the shear ludicrousy of it) I realized at the time it was silly, I even knew that we had the money to buy him more.. But something I had planned on and expected went wrong.. Within 1/2 hour I had gone from upset to PANIC and after that to the realization that I could have LOST him that quickly! I was home chillin and my husband was in an accident that could have taken his life. Needless to say I realized that the freak-out was not about the pie at all, but about my lack of control over life in general. That my husband, my world, could be gone in an instant.. That is how it happens.. My mom didn't wake up that morning knowing that my dad would never be able to have a conversation with her again. My friend Angela didn’t wake up that morning thinking that she would be in her early 30's raising 6 kids by herself. We don't get a warning like on an airplane to "fasten your seatbelts, we are about to hit turbulence".

The second thing that came out of the accident is this, here in NZ people don’t automatically call the cops for accidents like they do in the States. It really is up to the people involved. Probably not surprising, but due to Eki's history, we have a HUGE reluctancy to get police involved in anything! We would really prefer to handle everything ourselves. So, when the guy hit Eki, they got out to talk.. Eki first noticed the guy had been drinking! ~~Although it personally offends Eki, he has no need to make sure that punishment is given by the law for such an infraction. We believe that change comes from within, not something a ticket will change.. ~~ The guy asked Eki repeatedly to not call the cops. He also said he had insurance and that he would cover everything. Eki got all of his details and they left it at that.. The next morning Eki called him to sort out the details and... surprise, surprise, the drunk driver that thought it was a good idea to overtake my husband while he was turning NOW thought it was a good idea to say it was Eki's fault! Well not standing for that, Eki called the insurance company to lodge a complaint and.. surprise, surprise, the drunk driver that thought it was a good idea to overtake my husband while he was turning and then thought it was a good idea to say it was all Eki's fault had LIED about having insurance!

So here we are, A wife with serious anxiety of losing her husband that is just fine, A car that has major chassis damage, A guy with no values, and A husband who a year and a half ago thought that he would live his life in a way so that he never again would have to deal with cops and go to court.

And after all of that, after all the clutter of the world, we remember, We Are Sealed! My parents are sealed, my friend is sealed, and all that REALLY matters is keeping our covenants so that we can have an eternity together.


**Disclosure** It is very uncharacteristic of me to be upset about a pie being eaten. Eki is not living with the food patrol Nazi... Just sayin...

Thirty~something

Do you remember that show thirtysomething? I never watched it.. I remember thinking as a kid how they were wasting quality TV time on a show about OLD people!

Well next week is my birthday and I am going to be thirty~~something. It is funny how different birthdays have stood out in my life...

I have had big parties, no parties and 5 day parties. I have been happy and joyful on my birthday's and I have been sad and alone. I have been excited to get older (16) and I have cried in the grocery store because I was sooo old (25) on my birthday. I even have had police detectives haul me "downtown" to question me about a murder on my birthday! Last year on my birthday, I ended up slapping my husband....twice.... Luckily he was laughing...

As I think about my Birthday's and everything that I have seen in my life. I am so grateful to be at this point in my life.. In fact.. this year I believe will mark the happiest in all of my life! Hopefully I will say that exact same thing every year from here on out.

Eki is planning my birthday. I have no idea what he has in store! I love that! The only two things I am sure of, is that it will start with a pedicure and end with a kiss. What more can I ask for?

So 8 days to go.. and I am starting to get excited! Did I mention that I LOVE my birthday's!